[Often, Ben wonders if others realize that each of them is unique, that the individuality most of them take for granted is as much a gift as anything else about them, not a right; if they understand how wonderful it is. He is different in several ways from most of them. Others, not at all.

No one asks, though, so he tells his stories to himself and he watches them and he learns them, and now he is being asked to lead some of them, even in something as nonessential as lacrosse.

At the definition, he does not seem satisfied. That isn't his experience with captains at all.]

I am not... skilled. At encouraging others to engage. I doubt I would obeyed so far out of my realm of knowledge and affinity.